Every time I go outside at night and ask to see them, they show me, it looks like stars moving across the sky, and last night it was 10

Last night I saw 10 in a row all different lengths apart but in string formation, these weren't the star link, me and my son also saw one of the "moving stars" and out of nowhere me and him both looked in the same direction at the same spot and a huge white light or flash happened, and this was the whitest light I've ever seen, but anytime that I go out here and I ask with my thoughts to see them, I do, and my gf is always with me to see them as well, and we can tell they arent planes, planes dont fly right behind eachother like what we seen, I also on the first time I ever saw them, believe I made contact with them the same night, I was going to bed and started feeling extreme anxiety out of nowhere but nothing was wrong and then I started feeling like i was passing out and couldnt keep my eyes open, then my own thoughts told me they wouldnt hurt me and that I had to calm down for them to pull my astral body out, I lifted up my head at one point ( I believe it was my astral body) and I saw two of them at the end of my bed and felt one behind me with it's hand on my head, the two at the bottom looked childlike and very curious, almost like dolphin skin, but it looked exactly like how grays are depicted, unfortunately I couldn't stop freaking out even tho I wanted to meet them, I couldn't control my body and they said I couldn't go with them because I couldn't calm down and that they would be back again another time, and almost every night since I see them in the sky except one week where I didn't see anything, I believe I truly made some form of contact and they keep showing me their ships, and also showed my son for me I believe so he would know I wasn't crazy, unfortunately everytime I try to record I can never get anything on my phone, so I stopped trying to record the experience