I have images and videos of it pulsating at me and I think I got the first legit outline of the ship

I have seen this ufo as a child for a week straight I haven’t seen it till a few years ago it looks so bright in sky like a star but it isn’t normal it’s too bright. So I took video and pictures of it when I started recording it started morphing like it saw me it scared the shit out of me literally I was shaking I felt like it scanned me all my hairs we’re standing up and my brain told me to run if you guys look at my proof man I’m telling you it will give you chills. I know this is hard to say it took me a long time to tell my wife I think something happened to me when I was 9 and when I was 17 there was these shadowy creatures small about four feet with three long fingers and they had big black oval eyes to also remember a bright blue light and like I was floating out of my house up into the sky but I feel like they did something put something in my nose I would get severe nose bleeds after this and I would get this weird triangular pattern of dots on different parts of my body every so often I believe I was abducted as a child and I remember being scared at night I was afraid to tell my parents because I didn’t think they believe me I want to get hypnotized to see what really happened I swear to god after that I have had dreams that came true I also had some other unique abilities nothing awesome but would get premonitions allot my wife can back me up on this I’ll take a lie detector test also to prove it whatever you need but I still want to know what they did to me and I still feel like they are watching me I do have 0 - rh - blood also I was afraid to tell anyone for so long now I’m not I don’t care if people think I’m crazy or not I know what I saw thank you this is freaking me out. One night the next day after seeing the ufo a year ago I was out with my dog and I heard this huge branch break off a tree but when I looked nothing was there lucky got scared I started running up to house and I could hear tree branches breaking like it was following me please I will take lie detector test to prove it I want to get hypnotized asap