White weirdly shaped rectangular ship

I have visions and have been using astral projection since I was 12 years old. After returning to where I slept, I saw a brown thing lying next to me. After that for over 20 years and ongoing, I've had nightly visitors. They come usually at 3AM. The episodes begin with me seeing lights, like stars on my ceiling and walls. Then I see a beam (normally blue). I have body jolts and fall in and out of consciousness. I then hear a loud vibration and I become paralyzed (very similar to sleep paralysis, but not quite). I have spoke to the Monroe Institute and it appears that my experiences are equal to the gateway process, where I'm able to create gateways. Regardless, I hear a loud humming sound. Then I see strange colors or a cartoon projected before me, sort of like a way to enter hypnosis. Then I am fully paralyzed. I then see a spiral rotating before me. Most recently I saw something like a blue hologram of Saturn spinning in and around itself. And then I black out. Many times in this in-between state, I've woken up in strange places. Most recently I woke up trapped in a room. Later on, I wake up in my room.
On August 22, during my black out phase, I was in space and saw stations exploding. I realized that I was in an altered state as I listened to my mouth moving. It was a warning that the enemy was being dismantled. That they were dismantling the problem. I saw many things... And before I woke up down here, I saw a white weirdly shape rectangular space ship with red and blue lights. It was rapidly falling towards me, as if it was going to crush me. I then woke up.
I used to see the entities that would walk into my room at night. I haven't seen them in awhile. Now I just see holograms.
I have had a lot of these encounters and visited the hospital back in May. My discharge papers say that I just had an altered state of consciousness. I've been checked for epilepsy and my labs are normal. My doctors do not know why I have these issues with sleeping. Since I was a child, I would wake up with scratches and marks. As an adult, I often woke up with bloody lips. Back in May when I was taken to the hospital, my cat had to wake me up after an extremely bad episode. I want these things to leave me alone. They have been terrorizing me for 20 years and I am tired of it. I want these things to leave me alone so that I can sleep normally!