I caught the white orb on camera I also had what look like a star w blinking lights like a rainbow

The day I wrecked my four wheeler one was following me and when I was parked at night something hit me in the side of the head and I lost a couple hours and when I came to I swore I seen something hairy like a Sasquatch but it sounds crazy I kept hearing this voice in my head telling me to kill myself then I took off and somehow I wrecked and I don't remember none of it from that point but I've seen the UFO all the time out here and one day I seen a big black object and I had a bunch of red fireballs shooting out of it and in it freaked me out and they would look like a star and go from one point to another point instantly and I seen the orbs going retrograde zigzagging back and forth but this was kind of scary because it came right down to my window and I didn't know what it was I thought it was a drone at first until it shut off like that and I kept seeing a bleeder trail behind it almost like it was a spirit and then I kept seeing these lights in the woods they would just glow in the woods and then disappear one day I went after it it was glowing red and then it just disappeared I've seen a white light first and then it was gone I kept hearing noises in the woods banging and I had my chickens all eight and it looked like these big wolf like things but they were almost bigger than a wolf spiky hair on the back they were all black sorry it won't let me upload my video contact me for it