Flashing orb with irregular pattern rapidly blinks then flies away

Woke up around 4:15 am due to having a bad dream. I look out my window at 4:21 because a semi-loud distant humming is annoying me. I see a blinking light off over the treeline. I watch it for a minute or two until it starts rapidly blinking irregularly then drifts off to the west, still visible from my house. I close the curtains for a second because I'm pretty scared at that point and turn on my TV for comfort light. I gain the courage to reopen my blinds two minutes later, it blinks even faster then becomes a solid light and moves off to the southwest. I used to think all the time I was actually being visited and even though I couldn't film (because I sure as hell wasn't going outside) now that I have concrete proof for myself that UFOs are real, I'm torn between emotions.