abducted, and a lifetime of ufo experiences

i was eight years old and saw a craft on the ground in the woods. i remember standing under it.i don't remember how i got inside of it,but i wasn't scared as long as the small person with the large eyes was near me.  i saw panel boards in an area.  i also saw a baby about one year old on a table with an amber clear circled object in front of it. it was scared for a moment until it stopped in front of it. i saw another area with taller beings that i called the elders.  i also saw a hunanoid type man, that i will never forget.  i saw a girl on a table with a clear thing over her head where she was laying. i saw a room with tables and a ceiling with pulseing lights in it.  in 1985 i went to a hyptnotist because all my life the incidents came back in my dreams and thoughts.  until i was crying a lot. after seeing the hyptnoyist i realized it had happened to me.  and i had seen more since my incident. once they got into my head and told me to to go to a place called giant rock airport in the desert, where i had never been before.  but somehow i never got lost and i had three otherpeople with me.  we all saw the ship that night.  there is just one thing that i don't understand.  when i see the ships they don't look strange to me.  it is as if i know them. somehow i feel apart of them,like i have been there before. i don,t understand it, but the ships i have seen in my lifetime don't seem alien  it is like there is something i have to remember so that i can remember it all.  honest, i'm not crazy, this has been happening to me all my life. now i am worried because one came over my home in gonzales, la when i wasn't home and all 5 of my children saw it. and my babysitter was so scared that she did not come back to visit me for a year. i know we are not alone in gods vast universe, i just wish i could understand what is happening. i know they are real, and now so do my children, that scares me.  why my children too?
Date is approximate.  PD